2012 is coming

another 2 weeks kot 2012 dah
wahhh tak sangka tempoh jadi student dah nak expired soon
Alhamdulillah dah dapat tempat intern :)

well, there will be major changes shifting from my life going for next chapter
akan ada yang aku tinggalkan dan ada yang akan aku bawa bersama
it all depends on how determine i would be

Aku Kembali

it's been such a long time
lama tak menulis
dulu gedik2 je tiru orang ade blog
seronok baca blog orang
sendiri?haha pemalas

ada phase sgt seronok

i'm sorry

Dear Abah.

even though it's already too late to say this

i am deeply sorry

i took you for granted

i blamed you for everything i couldn't have done

you are the greatest daddy i've ever had

no one can replace you

may you find your eternal peace in other world

I AM SORRY

Bada Bing!

how to begin?
currently is sem break for my degree
okay,uh uh skip with that shall we

okay now i could say im totally me
i didnt date any guys
i didnt go out so often except works
and i didnt find any story or friend to listen

it's weird haa?
right?right?right?
it feels like im turning into adulthood already
i couldnt care less what happen around me now

last time i felt like dying if was not with friends
but now i spent most of the time with my ownself
literally i figured the quality of me (brag kejap)
figuratively i didnt notice till someone told me i have it

how awesome is that?
now i think i already able to let go some of the things
that last time when i thought about it
i would've explode and curse

bila fikir balik it's not worth it
i still have a long way to go in this life
still got loads to dream to achieve
i hope in time like "bada bing"
everything that i wished would not exist will vanish!
tada!! ;)

Freaking Best

Im the freaking best

Im the freaking best

wish that i ever had

wish that i ever had

dududu

glory.glory.glory

living in fabulous lane

ya mama yeah!

i am so turning into Kimora

Living in the fabulous lane!

keching!

Pathetic

Pathetic
is the correct word to describe
attention seeker to add up
Portraying self is innocent

all criticism being threw at once
once u know u are alone
dark,shallow,lonely,greedy
turned up into monster

though im dominant
but ill care bout others
people still appreciate me
people don't judge me

the reasons are due to:
they are TRUE friends
they know real me
they know my strengths and weaknesses
still they compliment each others
that's what friends do

u don't bitching around about others
don't get sympathy through ur past
it shows the real u
it makes u super pathetic
if u know what the word really means

Well i guess
that's the price to pay for being famous
people envy u
because i am God Damn Awesome!

Adrenaline Rush

Firstly ada orang complaint that my blog isn't attractive enough
ya meh?haha but i'm used to it since i'm not that creative when it comes to designing

i don't know what happened to me this week but i'm tremendously lazy
i keep giving excuses to myself
if my mom finds out memang kena belasah dah

there are lots of assignments + test
furthermore i'm working & it's such a pain for my time management

any suggestions?
get married kan?


hahaha BD

Drama Queen

Drama Queen

goes to Athirah Dagang!

she was so panicked when i hold her leg to pull out kaca

aiyoyo kakak saya mao tolong saja la

just before we locked the grill door

i remembered i didn't bring my cell

and she bebel i careless

the best part she herself didn't bring

*papap*

then we went to A&W to eat waffle

the sweetest thing was when she hugged me like a teddy

it's because she was afraid might fall

maybe it's my bad that i really ride it fast

no problemo pweety

u need more practice riding with me

soon u'll b fine

(melancholic mode)

p/s: aku tetap suka kau ;)

Craziness

Today was such a chaos for me

the great thing was when i lost my bike's key

it really crushed my heart to pieces

i was so freak out & menggelabah

memang totally cemas and berdebar

Thank God i already separated spare keys i my room

so thanks to Fikri Abdullah who saved my day

hahaha he fetched me home to get my keys

then reached home my siblings super nervous than me

they asked lots of questions & thought i lost my bike

don't worry Richard(bike's name) is just fine

then paling kelakar when my brother thought me wrongly

i'm gonna spend a night in Athirah Dagang's house

so he assumed i wanna go club

Aiyo got no money la how la wanna go ane

;*

Depression

I did a research on depression and thought it will be cool to share in my own understanding
when we depressed, it's worse that sad
depressed made us numb, fellingless or humanless
since we cannot feel anything
not even sad,frustrated,mad,and all those negative expression

there are few stages in depression
there's a stage which we will commit suicide
especially bila hati dah terasa kosong sangat

there are many factors can lead to depression
such working environment, family, instituition, relationship and etc
however as a Muslim kita ada akidah
Islam melarang hambanya commit suicide

p/s: dah tua nk jd counsellor kerohanian la..

P.A.I.N

I think every human lives in a pain
or perhaps every living creatures
Pain will teach how to value something
something that we take for granted
either we realise or totally not

It's very hard to get up back
Especially hugh pain from your loves one
Pain that can crippled you
Or made u numb or Depressed

As a Muslim we need to Believe with Qada' & Qadar
Each of us sometimes went overboard
org melayu ckp 'setiap yg terjadi ada hikmahnya"
english said 'there's lining silver in every cloud'

We need to redha in everything
Allah itu Maha Segalanya..


p/s: redha asignment xsiap lagi..hihi ;))

New Challenge

My new tagline is
Genuine Brilliant On The Run!
yes peep just bear with it

hahaha
now being in advertising is so effieng tiring
to noks letops mak like!
it's like adrenaline rush each day to class

additional me as part time worker
it so tiring & hectic but it is some sort of training
penat lak cite psl diri
rase fabulous sgt(geli sendiri)

hihihi
ok dude until i've new ilham nk tulis
then shall i meet again
thou u'll wait

PERMULAAN BARU

it's been such a long time i haven't write
just start in my degree in UiTM
yay!i major in advertising like i've always wanted
Alhamdulillah

*sigh*
orang kata tak elok mengeluh sebab kita kena sentiasa bersyukur dengan qada' dan qadar
but why people that i trust the most before this can do that to me?
that question keeps haunting me until now..
it is a cycle of life?
it is one ujian to test my Iman and patient?

i was so shocked to find out
i was so frustrated when i figured out
Yes TERKILAN is the correct word
have i done something that hurt u without i realised?
U know where to begin to talk if u got something
I always open for any communication

*shine*
tapi tak ape what had done dah jadi history
now each of us have chosen our own path
i hope you will success in your life
but don't repeat to others
but don't u wish us to be like we used to be

You will be part of my life chapter
You was my closest fren in Malacca
I am grateful for every help & knowledge
It just easy to forgive not to forget..

my heart

ini semua buat hatiku..
my heart <3
my beloved nephew and nieces
thun ni raye ade danial khaizuran!!
d most attention getter diz year..
he did nothing tp smue org kacau die..
he replaced sumone important role in my family with his cheeky smile..
from left is nurul iman, nur atikah adriana, danial khaizuran el faris, nur farisha adriana and nurul amani..
wpun headache layan mereka yang mmg sgt mencabar kesabaran dgn karenah
but i still LOVE THEM!!
maksu sayang kamu semua!!<3<3<3

hari raye

dh hari rayer 09..
raye thun ni special skit sbb it's on my bday!!
20-09-2009..x sedar pun date tu cantek smpai abg ckp..
this is my niece yg bru 8years old tp tggi nye la hai..
xtaulah brp tggi die nnt when she 20..
mesti maksu dah tenggelam dah time tu syg..
raye thun ni mcm ade kekurangan..
mmg ade kekurangan pun..
although everybody seem like not to discuss about it.
but i noe they think d same thing like i did..
it just dat we're in self denial and resentment
in order to endure the pain..
tp xpelah wat to do..
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

Ramadhan

It's Ramadhan!!!
lots of work to do
where to begin n where to stop

this Ramadhan wouldn't be as same like b4
coz of multiple reasons
i just hope i'll b delighted by it..

tp kalo bule dpt cuti time gi shootin nnt..

DinG DOnG

Ding Dong
it's what i feel
like knock3!
huh? what? ape ni?

i'm too adult or mature i think
to think all these remeh temeh stuff
y shud i lower my dignity to all these?
lecehlah..
there're lots of other things that i can think

i do believe in karma
what goes around comes back around
i dun have to tell everybody
who am i
i am easy n flexible
but i can b bitch
if i want to
n no one would want to see how bitches i can b

no harm, no worries
time will reveal d truth
i just have to sit back
get a regular caramel popcorn set
n watch evrything..

Life

Life..
no one would know their destiny
ppl choose their own path
we can plan eveything
yet God determine everything

it's hard to believe
but it happened
how i am suppose to tell d world
that i'm so hurt
i'm not a disclose person
so i wont tell my underlying truh feeling

i wanted to cry out loud
but it already happened
nothing i can do that can reverse it back
can it be?

currently i've a problem
with my own emotion n feelings
i'm weak wen it comes to family
wen we love and care too much
we hurt and frustrated that much

Mak,
I love u, I respect u, I care about u.
whatever happen, i'll still b ur daughter
that u can rely on
that never turn u down
1 u can b proud of

so-called fairy truth

i was so damn mad
i cant acted like there was nothin happened
none???no it's NOT..

me..
Nur Aqilah Mohd Noor Kamal
people who know me noe dat i'm not a hot temper
never without valid reason...
i'm a hepy go lucky
i love laugh,teasing n karaoke n shopin n etc
all the stuff that can enlighten n colors my day ;)

but unfortunately...
my patients were being taken for granted
which unacceptable for my principle
yeah i am hard to accept stupido reasons..

so i had a nice talk with
i voice up all the things
which mean that i care n CONCERN
not like only talk behind

o damn...
y i hv to explode like b4
i determined to control
all my feelings that i'll rarely disclose
or shown to ppl..

damn...
i hate this..
it's all fairy tale all this...

hospital/life

currently in pantai mc in malacca
waitin for my fren doing medical check up
i open my laptop n got wifi
wink3!!!i heart diz hospital

hospital potrays how ppl care about life
they r rushing to meet doc for consultation
what they should n shouldnt
for the sake to live
for themselves or their love ones??

it's funny to see
not many of the patients come not with their companion
they come with child or alone
but where r those companion when we need them?
too busy to concern?
only concern if the person under 6inches of earth?

who should answer it?
are we do care enough with our love ones?
are we know them enough?
or we only know the outer but not from inner..
how they feel n how they struggle
in order to live..

appreciate ur love ones
do it when u still can